It’s yearly check up time and the doctor schedules me for a Mammogram. Of course I say yes and quickly go home and cancel the appointment. I don’t think they are really worth it. Shortly after my chest starts itching insanely all day, all night. I was telling my husband about it and he says “You should watch this commercial on breast cancer. “ It was a zumba teacher talking about what I was experiencing. She had a mammogram and they found breast cancer. I called the doctor back and rescheduled a mammogram. As soon as they did the mammogram and ultra sound, the itching stopped. (I felt it was a divine intervention from my deceased father, who knew how stubborn I was) well it worked. No one else has ever seen the commercial but my husband and I. It doesn’t exist.
On June 9, 2014 my life went from perfect to what just happened? I entered the hospital and had a total mastectomy and reconstruction. I realized my life would never be the same. Frightened but never alone, the love of my life and husband, Dean and as my grandson son said as my husband cut my hair – its only hair Bama, it will grow back. became my everything. He started out having to be my hairdresser, putting in the curlers and combing out the style, dressing me and cleaning the fluid from the tubes 3 times a day. Next, hair is falling out and he becomes my barber! Our nine-year-old grandson, Pierce came over to video the experience. As tears rolled down our eyes he reminded us “Bammy its only hair”. From that moment on, the newly purchased wigs were put away. We need to feel proud of how we fight to exist and help those who need extra strength. We are not ugly because we have cancer, but special because we find a new purpose in our life. I realized I needed to be a fighter for our two sons, Blair and Kelly and his wife Sabine who Is like our only daughter. They blessed us with five grandchildren and one great grandchild. They bring the sunshine.
I have been blessed with incredible friends, who showered me with cards everyday for four months. They helped me realize there would be a rainbow and they would be there to share it with me.
Am I afraid of cancer? Yes, but God has new plan for me and I’m willing to assist.
Fashions by Will Stiles, Palm Springs
Jewelry by Deborah’s Jewelry, Palm Desert
Photography by Stacy Jacob Photography, Makeup by Olga Morales, Styling by Debbie Green